Time
I can't believe that Cameron is going to be 7 tomorrow. He is so grown up. I feel sad that my little boy is growing up so fast. It seems just like yesterday that I was teaching him his first words and colors. Now he's reading Harry Potter all on his own. Where does the time go??

More quotes because I am lazy tonight

Friendship is a single soul dwelling in two bodies.
Aristotle

What is most beautiful in virile men is something feminine; what is most beautiful in feminine women is something masculine.
Susan Sontag

Men are the reason that women do not love one another other.
La Bruyere

Only he who is man enough will release the woman in woman.
Nietzsche

Men always want to be a woman's first love. That is their clumsy vanity. We women have a more subtle instinct about things. What we like to be is a man's last romance.
Oscar Wilde

Ok I think that is enough for tonight.

posted by Lady_Indigo 9:29 PM

LOVE

Love is a universal migraine,
A bright stain on the vision,
Blotting out reason,
Robert Graves

Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.
Robert A. Heinlein

When we are in love we often doubt that which we most believe.
La Rochefoucauld

When a man is in love he endures more than at other times; he submits to everything.
Nietzsche

Love is not love until love's vulnerable.
Theodore

Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind;
And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind.
Shakespear

I spent a lot of time thinking about love and realationships and families today. Why do we love? Why does it hurt so much to love? Why do we hurt others when we love them and why do others get hurt by our love? A friend at work who is a police officer told me about a child abuse case he was helping with. My heart hurts so deeply for the little boy who died at the hands of his parents. My soul aches for the lost life and love of this little boy who was 4. Who didn't ask to be born, who was brought into this would out of the love making of his parents. Who died because they didn't love him. I don't understand. I cannot understand how it could end up this way. How you could not love something so much that you slowly killed it over the course of 4 years. I cry at the thought of this little boy named Quincy who was never given a chance. Who has 4 sisters who are all healthy and given everything they need including love. While the mother drives her new mercades and locks her child in a closet with no ventaltion with temps at 120 degrees at 6:30pm last night and doesn't even think twice about it. The child who only grew to the size of a 9 month old baby and weighed 20lbs. when he dies this morning and was only 28in. tall. the little boy who was pulling out his own hair and eating it. The little boy who ate carpet padding and mattress stuffing and insulation just trying to live. I hurt so deeply for this lost child. I hope he never had the ability to understand what was happening to him. I think I should stop now before I can't stop. I can't deal with these felings full on yet.

posted by Lady_Indigo 6:45 PM

Welcome back from the great beyond known as The Big Orange Box
Ahhh. I have been working like crazy and sleeping even less. Nothing earthshattering has happend in the last few days. Work has been relentless as usual with a few bright spots of smooth sailing going on. We finially seem to have a grasp on the tasks.

121 to 117
I have weighed 121 everytime I have gone to the Y in the last 2 weeks. Today I weighed 117!!!!!!!!!!!! I had a great workout tonight. 20 min on the treadmill and 35 on the EFX also 4 sets of reps on the hip adductor and abductor and 2 sets of reps on the biceps and triceps. Ahhhhh I feel great.

The Lil' Ones
The kids have been doing well. Haley spent the night with my step-mom and went swimming with the neighbor lady today. Cameron's birthday is on Thursday. He will be 7. I can't believe it. Where did the last 7 years go?

I really should get off to bed. I'll try to write later. Goodnight.

posted by Lady_Indigo 9:45 PM

I went to the Y
Yep I went. I didn't want to go. I am disgusted that I have to go. I am angry that I let myself get in this situation. I hate my genetic makeup. It sucks and it sucks big time!!! I am not asking to look like a supermodel, I just want to like nice in a pair of jeans. I feel like a great big ole' pear. I have no shorts that currently fit. Ugh I hate summer. I am dreading going to the beach in 2 short weeks. I have nothing to wear and I don't know if I'll fit into anything I do have by then. Where is the free liposuction clinic when you need one. UGH!!!!!

In other news
I have the 2 most wonderful kids in the world. Cameron is doing so well now that his meds are straight again. Haley has been such a doll (for the most part). She cooked dinner tonight without even being asked if she wanted too. She kept cam entertained all day while Steve caught up on his sleep, I am so blessed to have such great kids. I really should try to spend more time with them than I do. But balencing work and family is so hard especially if you live 1 hour away from work. Oh well, I guess things are going ok. Once school is back in things should be fine.

ok so I didn't do laundry and now I have to. No clean anything left. Better get a move on it I suppose.

Goodnight

posted by Lady_Indigo 9:25 PM

Why I Journal
After reading Skyra's blog I began to question why I blog. I began this blog in February on the advice from Sarah. She suggested it as a way for us to keep in touch since we live so far away. When I was searching for a title I remembered a poem I wrote at the end of high school. It is called My Violet Horizon. I thought this would be the perfect title. The poem is about transforming and beginning a new stage in life. So I thought that since I am coming into this new stage in my life, what a great title. In the beginning I was not sure what to write about. But seeing as how this was going to be a great asset in letting my distant loved ones know how we are doing I decided to mainly write about us. I do not have very strong political views. I do not pay much attention to the world outside of my life. This does not mean that I don't enjoy reading other blogs whose writers express their views in this arena. In fact I quite enjoy reading many blogs for the simple fact that I have few set opinions about the world. This blog of mine has been a great comfort to me both in keeping my family close and keeping me somewhat sane. I try to use it as a motivator to keep myself going. I try to use it as a tool to set the gears of my mind free. I try. And basically that is it. I try. I have spent the last year of my life trying harder than I ever have. I have never found something that is more important to me than my family. This is the year of family for me. I doubt they even know just how hard it has been. But well worth the work and I believe that it wouldn't mean so much to me had I not had to work for it. I have had my ups and downs, but not nearly as severe as past years. I do not keep a paper journal. As I tend to be lazy. Doing this online has produced some strange emotions but I have found great comfort from the other women I read. I pull from their strength when I feel I am falling. The women at YAAPS are wonderful, helpful, loving and always they’re for each other. I have a difficult time making friends. As it stands I have 2 irl friends. They are both very dear to me. I am very blessed to have them in my life. So I am not really sure where I am going with this post. I think I got lost somewhere in the middle. I think I have always been lost somewhere in the middle. I am not passionate about a lot of issues in the world. I have never felt the need to hold a sit in or to picket a company. But I do love my family and I do feel passionate about seeing that they get the most from life and the most I can offer them. I try to set a good example but sometimes I wonder if it is the wrong one. I work and I work a lot. I am out of the house for 12-14 hours a day. Now granted my day starts at 4am but still that is a long time. I worry that they will someday resent the fact that I worked so much. I don't particularly feel passionate about work either. I do however like working and doing a good job. I want my kids to take pride in whatever they do. Be it flip burgers of invent some new spacecraft. I am not ashamed that I have not yet finished college or that I work a retail job. No I may not be the English Lit Prof. I wanted to be but I am at this point happy with who I am. There will be time for school later, provided that it is important to me them. But for now I am happy. (well,... at least the Celexa is making me think I am happy... right???)

posted by Lady_Indigo 8:37 PM

So far

-slept till 9am
-had breakfast
-picked other car up from garage
-took a nap from11am-2:45pm
-went to Y from 3:15-4:15pm
-showered

now it is off to the lib with Haley provided I can get my arms to function. They feel like jello. I did the usual workout. Now I just need to get there a few more times a week. You are suppose to do weights everyother day for results, otherwise it is just a waste of time. And right now all I am doing is wasting time. However I am doing very well on the cardio part of the program.

Ok I don't want to get sucked into the computer today so that is all for now.

posted by Lady_Indigo 4:53 PM

List
must do's for tomorrow

-wash clothes
-clean bedroom
-go to Y
-do something creative
-read (maybe finish Dreamcatcher so I can read one of my new books)
-clean closet out so I can determine how many new shirts I need
-spend lots of time with Cam and Haley (which means going to the pool)
-try not to stress about work too much
-try not to stress about Joe stressing too much
-relax

There I think that about covers it.

Just for Joe
A link just for you Gothic Martha Stewart
(ok so I have run out of links that you would really like, at the momment this one will just have to due)

update I found a better link The Onion

posted by Lady_Indigo 9:23 PM

No title
I am to tired to think of a title. I suppose I will ramble a bit since I can't seem to organize my thought very coherently. Perhaps a list will be a better idea. Let's try it.

1. I have noticed that shorting myself sleep for 3 days consecutivly will obliterate my short term spelling and memory
2. I went to Media Play sunday night and bought myself 3 new books: The Priestess of Avalon-Marion Zimmer Bradley, The Long Dark Tea-Time of the Soul-Douglas Adams and Memoirs of a Geisha-Arthur Golden.
3. Did I mention that I have no short trem memory??
4. The Stratus is getting inspected today.
5. Work is just relentless. It doesn't let up. I thought we would have a short break after inventory but alas I was very inncorrect. We are working just as much if not more trying to get ready for these stupid audits. The "scaley elbow wicked witch" is a big ole' pain in the rear.
6. I haven't had time to read :-(
7. I tried reading last night but fell asleep.
8. Steve called off work last night and stayed home with me (smiles all around)
9. I didn't go to the Y yesterday (it was too late for me to go when I got home)
10. I am going to try to go tonight when I get home form work.

Ok that is all I have time for, I need to shower and get ready for work.
Did I mention that I work 6 days this week?? (sings the wonderful overtime song :-) )

posted by Lady_Indigo 7:46 AM

Just for Joe
Seven Wonders of the World.

I had a busy busy day. But not enough time to tell about it now. I'll write more tomorrow.

Good night everyone!

posted by Lady_Indigo 11:11 PM

Sarah the Great
Thank you so much for the card it is beautiful. Also the Zine is really kool!! I have a poem for the next edition if you are interested.

Just for Joe
ok it is going on late and I better get to bed before you yell at me because I have to be at work tomorrow at 7. So here it is a link just for you Books and Book Collecting Good night Joe.

posted by Lady_Indigo 10:34 PM

Today's workout
I had to combine both workout today since I missed yesteraday

Cardio-
20 min. treadmill 3.4 speed 6% incline
25 min. EFX cross-training program

Weights-
Hip adductor 2 reps of 10 weight-48 lbs
Hip abductor 2 reps of 10 weight-36 lbs
Chest press 1 rep 10 / 1 rep 5 weight-18lbs.
Lateral press 1 rep 10 / 1 rep 5 weight- 24lbs
Shoulder press 1 rep 10 / 1 rep 5 weight-24lbs
Back press 2 reps of 12 weight-36lbs.
Biceps 2 reps of 10 weight-18 lbs

Going to go shower now cause I was sweating like a really sweaty person.

posted by Lady_Indigo 10:18 AM

Well crap I did not know that the Y closed at 8pm on fridays. This bites. I drove all the way over there only to find it dark and empty. Oh well I guess I go tomorrow morning. And this also means no eating tonight and twice the workout tomorrow.

Now I have done it
I think I threw away my ankle / arch supports. When I got my new boots the new boots were to tight to wear them, the supports, in. So I think I left them in the old boots which I threw away about 3 weeks ago. I guess I'll have to search the bedroom when Steve gets up. I sure hope I didn't do that. I have had them since I was about 13 (no my feet haven't grown since then) and I have never lost them. Not even through several moves and such. I can't imagine where I put them. Update: I think I threw them away :-(

It's my body
I don't know how other people are when they go to the doctor but I can't understand why people don't ask questions. When I visit any of my doctors ( I have 4 if you count both dentists) I tell them what I want them to do. I am paying them. They will run the tests I want. No questions asked. I scheduled a pan x-ray of my mouth for today. The receptionist seemed shocked that I would do such a thing. She seemed a little surprised that I wasn't referred from another dr. I was but that was 2 years ago. Why bother going to the dentist when he is only going to refer you to the surgeon? Is it not better to consult with the surgeon and then the dentist? Since the surgeon is the one who I going to be doing the work?? And would have a better understanding of what needs to be done. Anyway I don't understand people that don't ask questions about their health.

There's a snake in my boot...
no no no that's not it let me try again. There's a nouse in my USPS shipping box. Yes I think that's it. I found a little mouse in a box this morning in the * eek * bedroom. I don't really know how he got in the box. However getting in must have been the easy part. He was trying to jump out and he kept sliding down the inside of the box. Poor little guy. I took him outside and set him free in the yard. So I am sure I'll see him again soon...unless some nice hungry owl came along and ate him early this morning.

The X-Ray
The short story so as not to bore or gross anyone out. Let's see...5 teeth to be pulled and 4 implants to go in. You may wonder why I am not getting 5 teeth back. Well I'll tell you this. Over the last 2 years I have managed to lose a few molars and one of the teeth that needs to be pulled is a molar without a bottom partner for grinding. So there we have it. Also this is to the tune of $5000.00 Yikes!!!! (yes we have dental but I don't know it this type of work is covered last time I checked the implants were not covered)

Just for Joe

You Think A Gallon Of Gas Is Expensive?
Makes one think, and puts things in perspective.
Diet Snapple 16 oz $1.29 .........$10.32 per gallon
Lipton Ice Tea 16 oz $1.19 .......$ 9.52 per gallon
Gatorade 20 oz $1.59 .............$10.17 per gallon
Ocean Spray 16 oz $1.25 ........$10.00 per gallon
Brake Fluid 12 oz $3.15 ...........$33.60 per gallon
Vick's Nyquil 6 oz $8.35 .........$178.13 per gallon
Pepto Bismol 4 oz $3.85 .........$123.20 per gallon
Whiteout 7 oz $1.39 ..............$25.42 per gallon
Scope 1.5 oz $0.99 ................$84.48 per gallon

and this is the REAL KICKER......
Evian water 9 oz for $1.49 ......$21.19 per gallon.

And of course a link Pennsylvania Used Book Stores

posted by Lady_Indigo 9:26 PM

1. Where were you born? Ironton, Ohio

2. If you still live there, where would you rather move to? If you don't live there, do you want to move back? Why or why not? No I do not live there and I do not want to move back for several reasons. Mainly because I love where I live now.

3. Where in the world do you feel the safest? In bed, under the covers with my baby blanket and pooh bear.

4. Do you feel you are well-traveled? Yes, but not as much as I would like.

5. Where is the most interesting place you've been? Carlsbad Caverns in New Mexico.

posted by Lady_Indigo 7:37 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH..... I LOVE YOU !!!!!!!!!

posted by Lady_Indigo 4:44 AM

talk about harassing me for being up late mr. 1:21am!!!!!

posted by Lady_Indigo 2:16 AM

Slacker this evening
I feel worse tonight than Mon Tues and Wed combined. Perhaps it is because this is the start of the "I don't want to be girl week" Ugh I just want to crawl into bed and die. I did not go to the Y tonight. I seriously thought about it. I really tried to convince myself to go. But I lost. My body just says "no, not tonight honey, you need rest" ok ok ok. but no food got it!! So yes I am a slacker tonight!! But only for tonight!!

A Poem for Joe

the lesson of the moth
by: Don Marquis

i was talking to a moth
the other evening
he was trying to break into
an electric light bulb
and fry himself on the wires

why do you fellows
pull this stunt i asked him
because it is the conventional
thing for moths or why
if that had been an uncovered
candle instead of an electric
light bulb you would
now be a small unslightly cinder
have you no sense

plenty of it he answered
but at times we get tired
of using it
we get bored with the routine
and crave beauty
and excitement
fire is beautiful
and we know that if we get
too close it will kill us
but what does that matter
it is better to be happy
for a moment
and be burned up with beauty
than to live a long time
and be bored all the while
so we wad all our life up
into one little roll
and then we shoot the roll
that is what life is for
it is better to be part a part of beauty
for one instant and then cease to
exist than to exist forever
and never be a part of beauty
our attitude toward life
is come easy go easy
we are like human beings
used to be before they became
too civilized to enjoy themselves

and before i could argue him
out of his philosophy
he went and immolated himself
on a patent cigar lighter
i do not agree with him
myself i would rather have
half the happiness and twice
the longevity

but at the same time i wish
there was something i wanted
as badly as he wanted to fry himself
archy

In case you didn't get it I am the moth.
And a link for you as well Strand Books.


Just call me Oscar
I should go hide in a trash can. I have done nothing but snap at the kids since I got home. I messed up Cameron's hot dog hamburger (a daddy creation so I was doomed regardless) there is red fruit punch all over the counter because no one found the lid I asked them to look for and of couse no one cleaned it up when it was spilled. I doubt they even looked for it. I am starving but I can't eat. I should have gone to the Y but the cramps are unbareable ( is that even how you spell that word, probably not and guess what I don't care) ugh I feel so .... not me. I really feel mean right now. Maybe the best thing to do is go to bed and avoid everyone. I should apoligize to the kids first though. Ok enough ranting I am going now good night

posted by Lady_Indigo 8:34 PM

Ahh the sun... I'm melting I'm melting
Nothing like a sun induced migraine!! The pool was quite nice. The water was refreshing even if I was thrown in. I made great headway in Dreamcatcher. Cameron lost his goggles on their last trip and was refusing to go in today. Steve was having a blast wrestling with the young boys and throwing them and the teen girls had a great time trying to dunk Steve. Haley is just amazing. I can't believe it was only a year ago that she was terrified to go in the water. But today she was jumping in the deep end like it was nothing. After the pool we went to the grocery store. Yeah now we have the basics again.

Living next to the middle of nowhere
has certain disadvantages. Such as a real grocery store. We have a Shur-Fine. It is nice and has your everyday needs. However they lack nearly all of the specialty items. Such as sugar-free teas and sugar-free chocolate milk mix. I was surprised to see that they do have Luna bars. Which I am thinking of getting by the box. I wonder if it is more cost effective to do so. I also wonder if I would be able to ration them out and make them last? Ok so back to the grocery store...They however only have one choice of Luna bars and it is one I don't like. Oh well.

More on living next to the middle of nowhere...
I don't think I have ever mentioned one of my strange hobbies, I hope you don't think this too morbid of me, I really like visiting cemetaries. I have been doing this since I was about 6 yrs. old. I would go visit my great aunt in Ohio during the summer and we would make flower arrangements for the headstones of friends and family members. I always liked walking through the cemetary with Aunt Hilda. She would tell me who was who and a little bit about them. I wish I would be able to take those walks with her now. She was one of the few relativies that I knew. Most of my family has passed before I was old enough to really get to know them. As it stands now I have both my parents and one maternal grandmother. There are some distant cousins but I have only met one of them once. So as you can see my family is very little. But anyway back to where we started. I like cemetaries and on the way to the Y I discovered this beautiful cemetary. Also on several of my drives to the middle of nowhere I have found several little cemetaries. In addition to this I have found some small plots in interesting places. So where is this all leading to you may ask??? Well do you think it would be a morbid idea for a book to document these places?? Take pictures and list the age of the place and any other misc. info. It was just and idea that occured to me on my way home last night.

Gross and Yucky
On this note I am in dire need of a shower. After working out last night and then again this morning and then going to the pool and sitting in the sun for 3 hours i feel very very very very very gross. So now I am going to take a long and wonderful and well deserved glitter bubble bath. Yep I'm breaking out the glitter bubble bath gel!! Maybe I'll even be a little feminine tonight and paint my nails. We'll see. I could do it while Camand I play Yahtzee.

Just for Joe
Here is another interesting site you may or may not enjoy Astronomy Picute of the Day.

posted by Lady_Indigo 7:20 PM

Like J-E-L-L-O
After strength training I felt totally like jello. I did only 1 rep of each machine. Except the hip abductor and the other machine that is it's mate.(I can't remember the nale right now) I did 2 reps of 12 on each one at 27 lbs. All the rest varried between 18 an 27 lbs. I actually am a bit stronger than I thought I was. Loretta (my trainer) said it comes back fast. And since I only stopped manual labor about 1 and 1/2 years ago it shouldn't take too long to get back to where I was.

UPS Delivers the goods!
We got Cam's meds. yesterday! He is so much happier today. And calm too. He says he feels better. His constant questions are more streamlined and coherent. He has also stopped running around like a wild man. Haley seems happier too.

Off to the blue
Pool that is. We are going to the pool now. I took a 4 hour nap. So it is a little late. But that is ok. More later.......

posted by Lady_Indigo 3:12 PM

Warning: Hell has frozen over...and if you look out your window you just might see Flying Pigs
Cameron has fallen asleep before 9:00 tonight. He was sans meds today :-( I told him they would be here later today. He was glad that we will have them for tomorow. He has said that he really dislikes the way he feels when he doesn't take his meds. On another note Haley has won Kudos today. She delt with Cam wonderfully!!! She had art classes set up for the two of them and she played medevil knights in the yard. She even asked permission to get the halloween costumes (capes and swords) from the attic. But suddenly she has turned from angel to she-devil. Ahhh the blessed tweens!

At the Y again
Yep I feel like crap. I think I have contracted some type of intestional virus. Nothing to do but wait it out. But despite the fact that I feel like I am about to hurl I went to the Y. I did the same workout as yesterday. And I am also instilling the not eating after 9pm.

Just for Joe
You know I can see you. So you'd better say hi. Also here is the link to Baldwin's Book Barn. And to anyone else who is interested in books, check out the link. This place is awesome. 300,000 books !!!!!!!!! Used, antique, rare, you name it, they have it.

now I am off to an early bed since the little Camblina is sleeping so peacefully. Good night :-)

posted by Lady_Indigo 9:25 PM

All's well that ends well
I went to the gym last night and worked out for about 40mins. 5 min. warm up, 15 min treadmill 3.4 speed 4% incline, 20 min. EFX program 2-Cross Trainer. Suprisingly enough I feel great this morning. No soreness just a slight tightness. I think going in the evening when Steve is napping is better than trying to go after work. This way I get to see the family and have dinner with everyone. Also that way Steve isn't waiting for me to get home to releave him of kid duty. So I'll try this time frame and see if it works out,

It would figure
Cameron took his last Concerta pill yeasterday. We still had not gotten the refill yet. I was going to call the script co. but left the number at home. Steve calls me after they get home from the pool only to tell me that they missed the UPS dude. He had the pills he'll be back today for the sig. then we get Cam's meds. I hope Godzilla (Cameron unmedicated) lies low for the better part of the day.

To the Science Center
We had a great day at the science center. Cameron was very intrested in all the whole adventure. He was dissappointed when we had to leave. Steve had gone fishing that morning right after work, so he was getting very sleepy by the afternoon. But overall it was a good trip.

Well I work today, then I have off tomorrow. Thank goodness I am so tired. I guess I should finish getting ready for work. Have a great day :-)

posted by Lady_Indigo 4:02 AM

All's well that ends well
I went to the gym last night and worked out for about 40mins. 5 min. warm up, 15 min treadmill 3.4 speed 4% incline, 20 min. EFX program 2-Cross Trainer. Suprisingly enough I feel great this morning. No soreness just a slight tightness. I think going in the evening when Steve is napping is better than trying to go after work. This way I get to see the family and have dinner with everyone. Also that way Steve isn't waiting for me to get home to releave him of kid duty. So I'll try this time frame and see if it works out,

It would figure
Cameron took his last Concerta pill yeasterday. We still had not gotten the refill yet. I was going to call the script co. but left the number at home. Steve calls me after they get home from the pool only to tell me that they missed the UPS dude. He had the pills he'll be back today for the sig. then we get Cam's meds. I hope Godzilla (Cameron unmedicated) lies low for the better part of the day.

To the Science Center
We had a great day at the science center. Cameron was very intrested in all the whole adventure. He was dissappointed when we had to leave. Steve had gone fishing that morning right after work, so he was getting very sleepy by the afternoon. But overall it was a good trip.

Well I work today, then I have off tomorrow. Thank goodness I am so tired. I guess I should finish getting ready for work. Have a great day :-)

posted by Lady_Indigo 4:02 AM

WHERE DID MY DAUGHTER GO???
She has gone away and left in her palce some hellish nightmare of a tween. Ugh the constant sarcasam and attitude is horrible. She isn't mean or even "bad" She's just a minature me. It is really very difficult to deal with her. She hasn't yet learned to read me, such as my ques to her when she's crossed the line. I guess it will be better in a few years.

IN OTHER NEWS
Cameron's script for his Concerta has not yet arrived. We are down to one pill. I guess I'll have to call today to find out why we haven't received it yet. I mailed it nearly 3 weeks ago.

off to work then to the gym :-)

posted by Lady_Indigo 3:46 AM

The Science Center
Today's trip to the city will include a visit to the Harsco Science Center. Haley is going to her bio-dad's this weekend. So it is just Steve Cam and me. Hopefully we'll get ice cream afterwords.

No progress today
Steve went fishing after work this morning so I was unable to get the the Y. I'll have to wait till Monday to get my program going.

That's it for now. I have to get the kids ready to go. Have a great day everyone.

posted by Lady_Indigo 7:10 AM

	Love-a-Lot Bear You love to take care of others and people love being around you because you make them feel appreciated. You are very sweet and soft-spoken. You are also a romantic and consider yourself an excellent matchmaker, so you tend to be a bit nosy. But everyone still considers you the sweetest person they know.
Take the Which Care Bear Are You? Quiz!

ok then

posted by Lady_Indigo 2:58 PM

I did it!!!!!
I went to my first personal trainer appointment. It was great!! My next one is on Wednesday. Today we did cardiovascular training. I learned how to use all the machines and now I don't feel so scared. Next week we are going to do strength training. I'll then learn how to use the weight machines. I feel great. Hopefully I can keep going every day after work and the extra 20lbs. should melt away in no time.

In other news
I hope to soon have a page up for Haley's drawings. Cameron's behavior has been less than stellar. Today I think I'll set up a sheet of things he should do while I am work. This may hopefully give him a little more structure which he needs. Then I guess I'll have to do my best guiding him over the phone throughout the day. Not much else is new or noteworthy.

posted by Lady_Indigo 10:43 AM

The web site is a little more organized now. I did some work on the following pages:

Family2

Hand Tinted

Our Home
(found a before pic of the living room)

have a little look see and let me know what you think.

Had a cake day at work today. It was relaxing for a change :-)

Shopping
Haley used the last of her sketch pad yesterday, so I went to Michaels today to get her a few ne supplies. As it truns out sketch pads and such were 50% off. I got her 2. I also got her a box of 50 crayola colored pencils. Also 2 -how to- drawing books (one is How to Draw A Bug's Life Characters) And to top it all off....A love canvas bag to keep her new supplies in.

Steve just called and has requested that I cook dinner now. Since he is on his way home with the kids. They went shopping and finially went to the grocery store!!!!

Side note
What is the likelyhood that an entire dozen of eggs has double yolks??? Our last dozen every one was a double yolk. It seemed a little wierd.

posted by Lady_Indigo 5:17 PM

Busy Busy Busy
today:

sealed the bathroom floor
went to the Y for the tour
made an appointment with the personal trainer there (fri at 9)
uploaded several pics to web page
played with Gallery
added new H-T photos to page go see and tell me what you think

must go get a shower now
have to leave in 40 min. for work

Have a great day :-)

posted by Lady_Indigo 9:33 AM

Ok so my entire template is missing???? yet my blog is ok. queer???

The Money Jar
Well one more conclusion Joe and I have come to is that our lanugage has taken a turn for the worse. So we decided to start a Money Jar to curb foul words. We wonder what we are going to do with the $80-90 we raise this week???

Confusion
I thought I had off wednesday this week. But I was really suppose to have off tuesday. But now there is a class I need to take tomorrow, on how to use one of our new computers, so I don' t have off tomorrow. Instead I'll have off Friday. Which happens to be really nice because I already have off on Saturday. So the over haul will have to wait till Friday. Understand??? I think I got lost in there somewhere :-)

I need to take Haley to the Lib. Guess I'll go do that now.

posted by Lady_Indigo 6:38 PM

I am trying to make changes to my template but I can't view it ???

posted by Lady_Indigo 6:30 PM

Overhaul
The next day I have off is Wednesday. On this day I will be giving my other website a much needed make over. Now that I have the scanner AND I just had 2 rolls of film developed I have lots of stuff to do. I also have a few more hand tinted pics to post for your viewing pleasure.

Illness has run amuck
Steve and Haley are both sick. I am not sure if it allergy related or actual illness. Either way I am avoiding them :-P Cameron on the other hand is doing just fine. So fine in fact that he has set up his very own drum set using all of the kitchen chairs (4) and every pot and pan.

Nearly a Toilet
Despite being under the weather Steve has managed to get the drain fitted and preped for the upstairs toilet. Yeah!!! One step closer the having the Library done. So now the only other big move we need to do is move the washer and dryer to the basement. Which should be a fairly easy move.

Alone???
I must admit that I am scared to death to go the Y alone. I have this horrible fear of doing anything new esp. if I am going it solo. I feel so out of my element. I just want to run and hide and crawl back into bed. I can deal with a little weight gain. My beloved still finds me attractive. No one siad I had to find myself attractive. Right?? Ok ok ok I know I know I know Suck it up and go do it. Big bad monsters aren't going to come out and eat me. Nothing bad is going to happen to me. Right??? Ugh. I hate feeling like this. I hate being so insecure about trying new stuff. I go to the Y tomorrow for my little tour, so that I know where everything is. Then maybe I'll feel a little bit better about the whole thing. I just feel a little bit overwhelmed.

Well I have stuffs I need to attend to. Ok mainly dinner :-)

posted by Lady_Indigo 7:51 PM

Leave it to me to Set Off All the Bells and Whistles!!
Yep I did it. I managed to accidentally set off the "silent" alarm in the vault today. As we soon discovered though the "silent "alarm was not so silent. In fact it sounded like the worlds largest group of crickets congregrated in a very small room. The police called and showed up. I felt very silly. But Joe was there Thank The Gods!! Everything is fine now and we have a tech coming out to fix the "silent" alarm so that it is what it says it is.

Nothing else
That's it. There is nothing else today.

Talk to y'all tomorrow!

posted by Lady_Indigo 5:15 PM

Can you say...It's was freaking, crazy, wicked HOT today
UGH!!!!!!!!! My shirt was soaking by the time I got home today.

Off to Thiness I go
I start my workouts tomorrow. Joe (at work) and I have decided to have a little competition. As we both have fallen out of shape. The goal is to lose 15lbs. in 5 weeks. We had a weight loss contest at work a few months ago, but IMO it was not set up very well as you did not get to choose your team mates. Joe and I were on opposite teams and he was sabotaging me the whole blasted time. (I am easily sabotaged with Milky Way Bites) hehehe We haven't figured out all the prizes yet. Yes there must be prizes. We did decided that if I win He has to drive me to West Chester (outside of Philadelphia) to a used book store called The Book Barn and get me a $20 gift certificate. We are still working on his prize. But it doesn't really matter since I am going to win!!!!!!! ( oh gosh I hope I win)

I fell off the Wagon
That whole crazy week of inventory I did something I should not have done. I stopped taking my Celexa. I had cut it down to a half a pill (with dr. permission) but due to my crazy schedule I wasn't getting more than 2 hrs of sleep at a time and the Celexa knocks me out. So I decided not to risk falling asleep driving. I have begun taking it again a few days ago. And I do feel better. Much more calm. And my truckers mouth has all but dissapeared. (blush)

Movie Night
Steve has off work tonight yippee!!!! We are going to take advantage of the 3000 cable channels and try to find a movie to watch. I bet you are wondering why we have 3000 channels aren't you..... well we got a discount on our cable when we got our internet service through the cable company. So now we have a bunch of usless tv channels but on the bright side we are connected 24/7 and nearly as fast as DSL. BTW did I mention that I don't watch tv but a few times a month??? The really nice thing is that we can block the tv so that the kids can only watch certain shows at certain times.

time to go

posted by Lady_Indigo 8:00 PM

It's Official
I am now the proud owner of a YMCA Membership! I'll start excercising on Fri. (closed today due to holiday) ]

It was horribily hot here yesterday. I am driving the good car today since the ac works much better in it rather then the Metro. Not much else going on kids were bored stiff yesterday. Steve wasn't feeling well, fever and sniffles, so they did not go to the pool and were not allowed out because of the heat. Cameron slept till 1pm. So he skipped his meds yesterday. He did quite well surprisingly. I talked to his docter last night and we are going to give him the Clonidine about 2 hrs. earlier than usual. He has stopped sleeping again and is becoming completely ravenous by 9pm. I gave him the Clonidine at 7:30pm lastnight abd he came to bed around 11:30pm. It's a start I guess.

Off to work...

posted by Lady_Indigo 4:33 AM

Umm.. how true are these tests???




Find out what kind of driver you are!

So I slept for about 15 hours yesterday. Yea for me :-) I got the scanner hooked up and played with it a bit last night. I posted a new pick on the opening page of Violet Horizon.

Must get ready for work now :-(

Oh and BTW I decided to get a membership to the YMCA. I'l go on Thrusday after I get paid. Watch out skinny jeans it's time for you to come out of the closet!!!!

posted by Lady_Indigo 4:24 AM

Because all the kool kids are doing it :-P

1. LIVING ARRANGEMENT? 2 1/2 story 100+ year old farm house, with 2 dogs, 2 kids and the adults.
2. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? Stephen King Dreamcatcher, Breeder, A Series of Unfortunate Events Book 2.
3. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Sylvester and Tweety.
4. YOUR FAVORITE BOARD GAME? I hate board games with the exception of Trival Pursuit.
5. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE MAGAZINES? Psychology Today, People and Victoria.
6a. FAVORITE SMELLS? Lavander, Amber Romance, Honeysuckle.
6b.NON FAVORITE SMELLS? Manure.
7. FAVORITE SOUNDS? the kids laughing.
8. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? being sad.
9. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? s#@t, I have to go to work again???
10. FAVORITE COLOR? purple, duh!!
11. HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE? usually one.
12. NAME OF FUTURE CHILD? no more children in my future.
13. MOST IMPORTANT THING IN LIFE? my children.
14. FAVORITE FOODS? baked spagetti.
15. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? Chocolate.
16. DO YOU LIKE TO DRIVE? yes.
17. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? yes, sometimes Pooh Bear spends the night with me.
18. STORMS - COOL OR SCARY? cool.
19a. WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? a 1981 Oldsmobile Citation, which by the way I rolled and walked away from.
19b. ULTIMATE CAR? Don't laugh... a 1986 Pontiac Ferio, red.
20. IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE WHO WOULD IT BE? Alive- toss up between Stephen King and Dave Matthews, Dead- my grandmothers on both my mother and father's sides.
22. WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN? Cancer.
23. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI? ick who eats broccoli...the only green food I eat is lime jello :-P.
24. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB YOU WANTED WHAT WOULD IT BE? I want to be the person who names the colors of Crayola crayons.
25. EVER BEEN IN LOVE? yes 3 times.
26. IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF Full? medicated- half full, unmedicated- half empty.
27. FAVORITE MOVIES? The Last Unicorn, The Dark Crystal, Ever After, Sleepy Hollow, Dracula, The Matrix, The Nightmare Before Christmas.
28. DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? no, but close.
29. WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED? hummm... 6 drawers full of misc. clothes.
30. FAVORITE NUMBER? 13.
31. FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH? I detest sports.
32. YOUR FAVORITE AGE SO FAR IN LIFE AND WHY? The past year, I learned more about myself during this time than in the past 20 some years.

posted by Lady_Indigo 9:50 PM

Updates
We had a great weekend despite the fact that I was exhausted. My wonderful Mom grouted my bathroom floor (Thanks once again mom!) The kids were happy to see her and spend time with her. The cook out was great. I think everyone had a good time. After a long discussion with one of our guests I have decided to join the YMCA. I just priced a mambership and for me it is $32 a month and $46 a month for the family. So I am going to sign up this week.

Work is much better. Things are back to normal again. All is well in the big orange box. No I won't be designing kitchens at least not right now. Maybe a few months from now only time will tell.

I am getting a wisdom tooth. Yes only one. I go to the dentist / oral surgon on the 19th.

My mom and I are thinking of starting a small business together. She does stained glass artwork and I have my hand tinted photos. There is a store at the mall that rents small sections to local artists. All you have to do is supply your display and they take care of the rest. There is a $60 month rent and they keep 10% of of the profit. We are thinking about trying to rent a section together. That way the cost is only $30. We would have to sign a 6 month lease.

Let's see other news...

Oh yes my birthday. Thank you to all the people who wished me a happy b-day. It was a wonderful one! Despite the fact that I had to work I had a great day. One of the girls I work with made me an 8x10 pan of fudge. I got everything I wanted. My mom got me the colored pencils I wanted and my dad got me the scanner I have been needing Haley made me a beautiful decoupage (sp?) pencil holder. Steve and I went on a date. There is a real live drive-in theater about 15 imn. from our house. So we got some McD's and drove up to the drive-in. They were playing -Mr.Deeds and Lilo and Stich. We felt that both movies were great. Depsite the fact that Mr. Deeds received poor reviews we really enjoyed it. We are big Adam Sandler fans.

I suppose that is about it. I hope to make the rounds to the other blogs tomorrow. I am going to read tonight. I am almost half-way though Dreamcather and it is all coming together now.

posted by Lady_Indigo 7:56 PM